Masculinist Unite!!!!

So I'm all for artistic nudes right? I think they're beautiful, judge me if you want. Hahaha I bring this up because I was just going to announce how proud I am, that I am improving my drawing skills when it comes to anatomy ;D hehe, not really. I'm just excited with myself that I'm getting better at drawing bodies accurately (mostly cause clothes are hard to draw ): ). More specifically, male bodies. Girls are just too difficult, cause I like to draw super curvy women, cause that's how I think they should look, its more natural, and thats pretty much how it was if you look at all the art before twiggy came along. But anywho, yes male bodies. That seems to be my focus lately, but hey, who's complaining? Its eye candy! This just reminded me that I find it harder to write from a girl's perspective, than a boy's. Which I'm not sure why I find that the way I do.. Maybe I'm a "masculinist" (muwaahha, male version of feminist). Which actually that's probably a lie in a way cause I love my gay men. Oh boy do I XD!! Oh well. Thought I'd share my thoughts on this. It amused me some, so I thought it might do the same for you (:

such a nerd..

today..is probably one of my most favorite days ever. (:

i think i peed myself out of pure joy and relief.

it'll only get better im sure (:

ahhhhhhhh

So here are probably the best photo's from the shoot. It's official, I *NEED* some ben.nye makeup paint and modeling wax, whatever its really called. Ahhhh! Yeah well if you wanna help out, get free pictures after, please commish me for now (:

I'd appreciate it soooo much. Cos I need to make money, cos i cant work right now... Yeah.....Anyways. Once I can work, I think I want to work at the Rienke Bros' cos that place just feels like home! haha well enjoy i guess... till next time!!! (probably in like 2 days..)

Hell Yeah the Earth is My Mother!

Hello to all. When it comes to my artwork, I'm probably not alone when I say I love feedback. Complements, advise, constructive criticism, I want it all. However, opinionated, unrelated comments, and nothing helpful or nice at all is well, just rude. If you don't have something nice to say, that doesn't help me in any way, please keep it to yourself.

"Horror / Macabre artwork, particularly that of a bloody nature is an acquired taste. If you do not enjoy seeing it, please, do not look. And just as is suggested for Daily Deviations, please do not comment on an artists work with your harmful or hurtful opinions of it. You have the ability to turn off Mature Content works by editing your settings. As with any art, horrific or not, if you have nothing constructive to say in a polite manner, then don't say anything at all" (DA NEWS: ABCs of Horror Contest Article).

I think this should be included to any forms or art, if you don't like it, then why are you looking at it?

I bring this up because someone commented one of my works, from a zombie photoshoot saying (word for word) "all zombies must die. sorry" To which I respond "technically, they already did." Which we all know is true. I don't care if you like zombies or not. Keep your untalented and idiotic comments to yourself. You're like what? 14? Actually learn to draw at least a strand of hair before you call yourself an artist. I can go on for so long about this little girl, and how all her faves are filled with anti love/world works like stamps that say "the earth is not your mother" (which i also respond: hell yeah it is! with out the earth, no one would be here, obviously, there'd be no life, and she gives us all life, just like our biological mothers did. She takes care of us and we take care of her dammit! Plus it is a figure of speech that came from the whole idea that the earth gives us life like a mother, just like "mother Russia" you must protect your home land right? the earth is everyone's homeland.

Sorry to get so in to this. I'm just really passionate about things like this, as you can see, and I actually hold back or check my facts before I say something stupid, and am able to admit and apologize when i'm wrong. Again i'm sorry to be all RAWR!!! about this because this is fo sho not the first time. But that was the stupidest comment I've ever heard.

Whooo!

i really like this...just goofin' around in my room... this was a turn out xD no edits! <3

Art Block?

I seem to be only truly happy when I can make art. Drawing or painting (no matter how crappy it turns out) just makes me feel better. And in my art classes at school, i was happy because i was kept busy by working really hard and experimenting with new projects my teacher gave us, and because of working so much on these projects i didn't really have time or inspiration for my own.

Now I don't feel like I have anything to work on; no inspiration, no will, no nothing. And it sucks.

Its like phantom limb feeling in my nerves and my hands and it bugs me so much! (No i don't really know the phantom limb feeling but from septum piercing mishaps i have a pretty good idea) But even requests people ask me to do just aren't holding it for me. I don't know if its just an art block or what but its a pretty long ass one if you ask me.

And as most of you know I want to open my own tattoo shop and get a career going so I'm taking classes for business and such. That's gonna be GREAT. But not really. But because of this whole freaking art block I'm doubting my career choice and myself as an artist at all. And It's kinda too late to think of other things to do, because that's all I wanted to do since I was like, 4!! I even went to work with a tattoo local artist on career day ):<>

See how crazy art blocks make me? I'm freaking out over what's probably nothing. But it still really feels empty and crappy. Awesome.

Bottle Cap Necklaces

Here are the bottle cap necklaces I've made so far..Hurray boredom! um.. I'll make you one for commish. ;D otherwise yeah these babies are miiiiine. However Pari gets a Conor Oberst one fo freeeeeee. Yeah, I'm just proud, that's all. enjoy.

Hitsugi
Oliver Sykes
Conor Oberst

mini rant.

So originally I was going to just talk about my chatroulette adventure last night at my friend's house. But instead, I deleted like 3 paragraphs about it because now it's going to be a rant. Or a small-ish one.

Family-wise, I hate mine. Seriously I do. And its the main reason I had a really dark depression a while back and hate the summer and several other things. I really want my license right now, so I can just drive off and be somewhere that actually feels like home. I constantly catch myself wishing "I just want to go home"..but in reality I am home, its my house, its my room, but i feel like i shouldn't be there. It sucks.

Friend-wise, I don't know what to do anymore. There's so many people I love and so many people i feel like are drifting away despite my efforts. I feel like i have no one left to talk to about stuff, like when life gets really dark for me.

Boy-wise, HAH! I wish I was a lesbian ): Boys suck and need to grow a pair when certain things are obvious and such and hgi aklgj'loghdfiuh!!!!! D8<

Thanks for listening /: I suppose I feel better. A little.

Good Evening, Ladies and Gentlemen....

First off, hello! Um..wow i really don't know what to say here.. I guess I'll just let you know why I'm here. My good friend Austin ( http://dreamingleftofcenter.blogspot.com/ ) suggested I started a blog a while ago. He told me that I'd make good blogs, and its pretty much what i was doing already on DeviantArt.com. He was right, of course so here I am now, giving it. I'm really excited though, because who knows who will read this? You, apparently- do i even know you? maybe not. And that's precisely part of the reason why I did give in. I found that most people I didn't know gave me the most value in words when i decided to take my life public in "journals". I find it so amazing when people so far away can give me such a different perspective but still stay in sync with me. So, follow me or not, I'm here to stay. Ready or not, this is what i have to say

(hahaha! how cheesy?! That rhymed XD!! )