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Not much to say other than that really.

Peace in! O:

Because I dont like ICP..

http://www.myyearbook.com/?mysession=cmVnaXN0cmF0aW9uX3Byb2ZpbGUmdXNlcmlkPTI0NDAxMDMz felt it was nessiscary to say "what the fuck is that about bitch u can just go and take your little cute face and stick in a fire and burn tell your mother fucking die....................IF U AINT DOWN WITH THE CLOWN THAN THAT IS ALL U R WORTH TO ME........FUCK OFFFFFF"

Way to be mature about things :D Oh well. It made my day to know I ruined his (: At least Im cute! hahah!

Stop being emo.

So..I seriously wanted to be friends. Youre so important to me..yet I see that you would prefer to be a a little diva about this..If you seriously keep this up, I will make you cry (: I seem to be good at that.

Quick Update

Hmm..I must say. I like my tumblr a whole lot better than this, even though this is like, my rant page. So, check there for sooner updates and pictures and anything of randomness mixed with joy. But thats really all I have to say. I suppose Im doing rather well. I just feel like things could always improve. But I suppose I will always feel that way.

50 THINGS

Please click HERE. I dont want to retype/ link everything.

ARUGH

This is how I feel lately.

(c) Harold and Maude. Great ass movie.

Alas, childhood..

So basically, its on my mind so I'm sharin it with the whole world of the interwebs :D

First of all. My dearest ex-neighbor boy, Im not sure if you ever picked up on it, but each summer since we lived across the street from each other, I was quite convinced we were "a thing". Hahaha. Oh, Childhood. Aaaaand then you kinda got super lame /: Damn you puberty making us hate each other haha. And well now, I havent seen you in years. Not gonna lie. I miss you /: And now youre like, super duper hot. YEAH. So Im gonna take the liberty of saying: I had you first XD hahah. Yeah so this was pointless, I hope no one reads this. But this makes me feel better haha. And you were in MY dream last night. Quite odd, actually.

That is all.

BEARDS.

I like them lately....

Its a bit odd.

FYI

I like my semes to be super.

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If you know what I mean :D

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That is all...

Post Modern Cliche

Have you heard of "The Post-Modern Cliche" ? No? You sinner D:<

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Complaining!

We all do it. A lot. Don't say you don't, cause then you'd be a liar too. But right now it's my turn. Prepare for one of many.

Lets get started! :D

First, you are fake. Really. When we first met you were so original and creative and talented but when I found something I thought was cool, you thought they and made me seem poser ( you said this in a nice way tho, of course). But now, YOU not only convinced another friend to get some (after I did), YOU know have them too. I admit, I might be wrong. MIGHT BE. But i'm pretty sure that's what I saw today. WAY TO BE #1

Also, when I asked if everyone was at the meeting, you said "yes, why?", When you knew i was supposed to be there, but you acted like it didnt matter i was missing for an HOUR (by accident). And I asked you to repeat a message (decently long apology message) to another friend, who obviously didnt get it cause she didnt talk to me since! WAY TO BE #2

Now you're ignoring me. Dont you dare deny it. When I'm with the crew, including you and everyone else (i.e. the crew) I say hi, sometimes even adding your name. And you ignore me. You dont look my way, you dont say anything. I know its on purpose cause this is like the 12th time it happened in just a few days. Seriously WAY TO BE #3

YES... YES IT IS NECESSARY TO NUMBER THESE THEY WAY IM DOING.

You worship him. It is obvious. My cousin who has met you maybe once before the same summer even commented and was creeped out. Have you noticed yourself? I know you are "in love" with him or something. But EVERYONE likes him. Like, who hasn't had a crush on him? I of course have too and you knew. Do I still like him? Yeah. Do I want him? No. He's my BEST FRIEND. If I had to choose between anyone and him, I'd probably pick him cause he's my best friend. THAT IS ALL. STOP BEING PARANOID. You claim to be over him, but its apparent you're not. The way youre treating me lately is because of him. Again. I'm so hurt. I thought we were best friends. Youve done this before a few times now but now it hurts the most because its severe and stronger this time. I'm not forgiving you when you apologize. WAY TO BE #4

So many times I wanted to tell DA secret, how I felt, but I knew you read it, and I assumed you'd guess it was me.

I wish we were never friends, because when we finish this little fall out we're having, I'd feel better knowing I didnt expose myself to someone so untrue. I wish everything I ever told you, I didnt. I wish Everything you know, you didnt. I wish so many things I cant take back. I guess thats my fault tho isnt it.

I dont know what else I can say now, there's so many things going through my head. Basically I'm so offended that you pretended to be my friend.

Time to change..Plus suggestions.

So several things in my life are changing, family wise, friend wise, pretty much any thing you can think of. And most of it isn't to great...But this year I'm determined to dedicate it to myself..for the most part, anyways. I usually put a lot of people and their feelings before me, and I will continue to do so, but I feel it's about time I learned to spoil myself and better prepare myself for next summer- where hopefully, I will start my internship at NEWSPEAK, the tattoo shop where my family's friend currently works.

I want a new digital camera, not a crappy little one for awkward myspace angles and stuff, but like a legitimate photography camera. What do you guys use? Hopefully I can get my hands on one for a relatively cheap one, with great quality.

I need a new sketch book plus pencils.. The one I had is filled, and my pencils from school are about..2 inches tall now.. and i don't have any traditional art classes this year. Sad face. Again, I'm on a budget.

So far, thats all thats my main concern. Of course theres stuff i want like a pair of gray TOMS and such, but thats what my birthday is for...which PS: is in October :D

WHOA MAN

So am I the only one who has seen Stephan Christian's (from Anberlin), new hair cut??? I thought I loved him before, but now...oh goodness I think I need to change my pants XD he looks very foxy (: They all look goooood

BEFORE...

AFTER.....

HAWTDAYUM.

I'm really in love with this for some reason. Cant say why, haha. (I uploaded the watermark version from Deviantart because it makes me feel special, obviously, gosh...) Tattoo? Yes.

Heaven Fest!

So on Sunday, Aaron's mom (and brothah ) took us to Heaven Fest which was for CO only i guess, which is BADASS, and could be called the christian's warped tour And we met up with Connor and Kevin n_n Here's Kevin as a unicorn, and connor with pretty grass bows i made XD hahaha Aaron wouldn't let me make him pretty ):

In all it was amazing! I but I got a sunburn on my chest ): But I saw The devil wears Prada, The Crimson Armada, A Plea For Purging, and Blessed By A Broken Heart, and more 8DK It was Awesome. I don't know how else to describe it (:

Dear LovedOnes.

No one will ever mean what they say, or love you nearly as much as i have or or will. That's a promise. I may just throw words at you to cheer you up, but make no impact, but I don't see anyone trying nearly as hard as I do. In the end, you're not the only one who needs friendly pretty words tossed in their laps. Some times when we talk, and as hard as I try, nothing I say can change how you feel. Usually when that happens, I stop and wonder for a moment what if you left my life, even if it wans't forever. And I break down and cry. Honestly. Each and every one of you are my reasons I know things will be okay in the end. Cause you know what? Life sucks. But with you in mine, it's a whole lot better. Next time someone else lies to you and say they love you, or hurt you again, remember that I still love you. Even if it's tomorow, or in 20 years. I want to keep you as my best friend.

Please excuse this mini-rant filled blog.

ifreakinglovesprinklesdontyou?

I'm home from camp. Hurray! But I'm looking for so much inspiration. I NEED to create something, honest! My hands are seriously shaking cause I've just got that feeling, but I have no clue what to make of it. You ever feel that way? Ah well, anyways, today, JULY 26, 2010 is my mother's birthday!! Yipee!!! Um, she is....28. Again. Obvioiusly.

MC.MB's CD "Lost Boy" is UHMAZING. Seriously, if you dunno who they are, there is a problem with you. Go listen, go worship. YAY

Speak of which: TASTE THE POWER!!! (um..lookie at picture above..)

So.........Little Baby Yoav moved back to Israel with his family. I'm happy for them but I miss them cause they were super nice and practically family. All o'em /: blaaaahhhh (photo on my DA)

But on the plus side, I got my license today :D

Streets Of Gold

Have you heard the new 3OH!3 album? Yeah, that's right kid. Thats MY area code!!! Haha, anways. Go listen to it. I do. When I listen to it, I think of you, with my hands down my pants. :P

dissapointed.

I'm just super frustrated and disappointed lately. I REALLY want to dye part of my hair, and pierce my septum. What's holding me back you ask? Parents of course! I respect their opinion, and I will obey by their rules. But When I'm 18 in the following October, I'm still not allowed to do either. Which i don't understand. My mom let me dye my hair, and every time I do, it's the same place and color. and since I'm not allowed to used bleach, it lasts for a maximum of 2-3 days. That really sucks for me ): I have so many friends that constantly bleach their hair, boys and girls, and they do it A LOT. Austin and Amalie, who do it most each, have the softest nicest hair of anyone i know! Bleach GROWS OUT. But my mom's all retarted and unconvinced. Especially if I got it professionally done, I realllllllly doubt it'd ruin my hair for the rest of my life.. Like seriously people. I mean she does it when she gets her highlighted and she let my sister do it for years now ): this is so unfair!!! And you may also ask why the septum? Well for me, I personally really like them, when they're small and cute. AND i can easily hide them for work, school, or anything else. Its my personal style but apparently I cant have it. I honestly feel like I need it tho. I've wanted it since 6th grade...and I'm a Junior in High school now..You do the math. Hell! I'd be fine with any facial piercing they'd let me have, but they just wont have it even if I was 18 or ended up taking it out. Again, my friend Amalie pierces herself all the time. The only "scars" visible out of everything she's pierced are when she pierced her cheeks, and they look like dimples now. And even if people were to judge me (hiding my piercings-to-be, or not) Its again a personal choice I want to live with. If they were to judge me purely on just that, than they are clearly not worth my time. Plus, my mom has fully accepted (my dad's almost there..) of my career of choice that i'm in the process of getting on the road: A tattoo artist. I mean really. she knows I'm getting tattooed everywhere and she's fine with that, but i cant temporarily dye my hair?! She even wants me to tattoo her! Again, I feel like I'm personally being attacked in some way. ): thanks for putting up with me.

i LOVE gummy bears.

So here's the full color version of the gummy bear picture i posted here: Other Gummy Bear and i just realized how silly my mouth and nose look XD hahah well i like it. thanks to mister matticus for helping me choose (:

Masculinist Unite!!!!

So I'm all for artistic nudes right? I think they're beautiful, judge me if you want. Hahaha I bring this up because I was just going to announce how proud I am, that I am improving my drawing skills when it comes to anatomy ;D hehe, not really. I'm just excited with myself that I'm getting better at drawing bodies accurately (mostly cause clothes are hard to draw ): ). More specifically, male bodies. Girls are just too difficult, cause I like to draw super curvy women, cause that's how I think they should look, its more natural, and thats pretty much how it was if you look at all the art before twiggy came along. But anywho, yes male bodies. That seems to be my focus lately, but hey, who's complaining? Its eye candy! This just reminded me that I find it harder to write from a girl's perspective, than a boy's. Which I'm not sure why I find that the way I do.. Maybe I'm a "masculinist" (muwaahha, male version of feminist). Which actually that's probably a lie in a way cause I love my gay men. Oh boy do I XD!! Oh well. Thought I'd share my thoughts on this. It amused me some, so I thought it might do the same for you (:

such a nerd..

today..is probably one of my most favorite days ever. (:

i think i peed myself out of pure joy and relief.

it'll only get better im sure (:

ahhhhhhhh

So here are probably the best photo's from the shoot. It's official, I *NEED* some ben.nye makeup paint and modeling wax, whatever its really called. Ahhhh! Yeah well if you wanna help out, get free pictures after, please commish me for now (:

I'd appreciate it soooo much. Cos I need to make money, cos i cant work right now... Yeah.....Anyways. Once I can work, I think I want to work at the Rienke Bros' cos that place just feels like home! haha well enjoy i guess... till next time!!! (probably in like 2 days..)

Hell Yeah the Earth is My Mother!

Hello to all. When it comes to my artwork, I'm probably not alone when I say I love feedback. Complements, advise, constructive criticism, I want it all. However, opinionated, unrelated comments, and nothing helpful or nice at all is well, just rude. If you don't have something nice to say, that doesn't help me in any way, please keep it to yourself.

"Horror / Macabre artwork, particularly that of a bloody nature is an acquired taste. If you do not enjoy seeing it, please, do not look. And just as is suggested for Daily Deviations, please do not comment on an artists work with your harmful or hurtful opinions of it. You have the ability to turn off Mature Content works by editing your settings. As with any art, horrific or not, if you have nothing constructive to say in a polite manner, then don't say anything at all" (DA NEWS: ABCs of Horror Contest Article).

I think this should be included to any forms or art, if you don't like it, then why are you looking at it?

I bring this up because someone commented one of my works, from a zombie photoshoot saying (word for word) "all zombies must die. sorry" To which I respond "technically, they already did." Which we all know is true. I don't care if you like zombies or not. Keep your untalented and idiotic comments to yourself. You're like what? 14? Actually learn to draw at least a strand of hair before you call yourself an artist. I can go on for so long about this little girl, and how all her faves are filled with anti love/world works like stamps that say "the earth is not your mother" (which i also respond: hell yeah it is! with out the earth, no one would be here, obviously, there'd be no life, and she gives us all life, just like our biological mothers did. She takes care of us and we take care of her dammit! Plus it is a figure of speech that came from the whole idea that the earth gives us life like a mother, just like "mother Russia" you must protect your home land right? the earth is everyone's homeland.

Sorry to get so in to this. I'm just really passionate about things like this, as you can see, and I actually hold back or check my facts before I say something stupid, and am able to admit and apologize when i'm wrong. Again i'm sorry to be all RAWR!!! about this because this is fo sho not the first time. But that was the stupidest comment I've ever heard.

Whooo!

i really like this...just goofin' around in my room... this was a turn out xD no edits! <3

Art Block?

I seem to be only truly happy when I can make art. Drawing or painting (no matter how crappy it turns out) just makes me feel better. And in my art classes at school, i was happy because i was kept busy by working really hard and experimenting with new projects my teacher gave us, and because of working so much on these projects i didn't really have time or inspiration for my own.

Now I don't feel like I have anything to work on; no inspiration, no will, no nothing. And it sucks.

Its like phantom limb feeling in my nerves and my hands and it bugs me so much! (No i don't really know the phantom limb feeling but from septum piercing mishaps i have a pretty good idea) But even requests people ask me to do just aren't holding it for me. I don't know if its just an art block or what but its a pretty long ass one if you ask me.

And as most of you know I want to open my own tattoo shop and get a career going so I'm taking classes for business and such. That's gonna be GREAT. But not really. But because of this whole freaking art block I'm doubting my career choice and myself as an artist at all. And It's kinda too late to think of other things to do, because that's all I wanted to do since I was like, 4!! I even went to work with a tattoo local artist on career day ):<>

See how crazy art blocks make me? I'm freaking out over what's probably nothing. But it still really feels empty and crappy. Awesome.

Bottle Cap Necklaces

Here are the bottle cap necklaces I've made so far..Hurray boredom! um.. I'll make you one for commish. ;D otherwise yeah these babies are miiiiine. However Pari gets a Conor Oberst one fo freeeeeee. Yeah, I'm just proud, that's all. enjoy.

Hitsugi
Oliver Sykes
Conor Oberst

mini rant.

So originally I was going to just talk about my chatroulette adventure last night at my friend's house. But instead, I deleted like 3 paragraphs about it because now it's going to be a rant. Or a small-ish one.

Family-wise, I hate mine. Seriously I do. And its the main reason I had a really dark depression a while back and hate the summer and several other things. I really want my license right now, so I can just drive off and be somewhere that actually feels like home. I constantly catch myself wishing "I just want to go home"..but in reality I am home, its my house, its my room, but i feel like i shouldn't be there. It sucks.

Friend-wise, I don't know what to do anymore. There's so many people I love and so many people i feel like are drifting away despite my efforts. I feel like i have no one left to talk to about stuff, like when life gets really dark for me.

Boy-wise, HAH! I wish I was a lesbian ): Boys suck and need to grow a pair when certain things are obvious and such and hgi aklgj'loghdfiuh!!!!! D8<

Thanks for listening /: I suppose I feel better. A little.

Good Evening, Ladies and Gentlemen....

First off, hello! Um..wow i really don't know what to say here.. I guess I'll just let you know why I'm here. My good friend Austin ( http://dreamingleftofcenter.blogspot.com/ ) suggested I started a blog a while ago. He told me that I'd make good blogs, and its pretty much what i was doing already on DeviantArt.com. He was right, of course so here I am now, giving it. I'm really excited though, because who knows who will read this? You, apparently- do i even know you? maybe not. And that's precisely part of the reason why I did give in. I found that most people I didn't know gave me the most value in words when i decided to take my life public in "journals". I find it so amazing when people so far away can give me such a different perspective but still stay in sync with me. So, follow me or not, I'm here to stay. Ready or not, this is what i have to say

(hahaha! how cheesy?! That rhymed XD!! )