Alas, childhood..

So basically, its on my mind so I'm sharin it with the whole world of the interwebs :D

First of all. My dearest ex-neighbor boy, Im not sure if you ever picked up on it, but each summer since we lived across the street from each other, I was quite convinced we were "a thing". Hahaha. Oh, Childhood. Aaaaand then you kinda got super lame /: Damn you puberty making us hate each other haha. And well now, I havent seen you in years. Not gonna lie. I miss you /: And now youre like, super duper hot. YEAH. So Im gonna take the liberty of saying: I had you first XD hahah. Yeah so this was pointless, I hope no one reads this. But this makes me feel better haha. And you were in MY dream last night. Quite odd, actually.

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BEARDS.

I like them lately....

Its a bit odd.

FYI

I like my semes to be super.

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If you know what I mean :D

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Post Modern Cliche

Have you heard of "The Post-Modern Cliche" ? No? You sinner D:<

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Complaining!

We all do it. A lot. Don't say you don't, cause then you'd be a liar too. But right now it's my turn. Prepare for one of many.

Lets get started! :D

First, you are fake. Really. When we first met you were so original and creative and talented but when I found something I thought was cool, you thought they and made me seem poser ( you said this in a nice way tho, of course). But now, YOU not only convinced another friend to get some (after I did), YOU know have them too. I admit, I might be wrong. MIGHT BE. But i'm pretty sure that's what I saw today. WAY TO BE #1

Also, when I asked if everyone was at the meeting, you said "yes, why?", When you knew i was supposed to be there, but you acted like it didnt matter i was missing for an HOUR (by accident). And I asked you to repeat a message (decently long apology message) to another friend, who obviously didnt get it cause she didnt talk to me since! WAY TO BE #2

Now you're ignoring me. Dont you dare deny it. When I'm with the crew, including you and everyone else (i.e. the crew) I say hi, sometimes even adding your name. And you ignore me. You dont look my way, you dont say anything. I know its on purpose cause this is like the 12th time it happened in just a few days. Seriously WAY TO BE #3

YES... YES IT IS NECESSARY TO NUMBER THESE THEY WAY IM DOING.

You worship him. It is obvious. My cousin who has met you maybe once before the same summer even commented and was creeped out. Have you noticed yourself? I know you are "in love" with him or something. But EVERYONE likes him. Like, who hasn't had a crush on him? I of course have too and you knew. Do I still like him? Yeah. Do I want him? No. He's my BEST FRIEND. If I had to choose between anyone and him, I'd probably pick him cause he's my best friend. THAT IS ALL. STOP BEING PARANOID. You claim to be over him, but its apparent you're not. The way youre treating me lately is because of him. Again. I'm so hurt. I thought we were best friends. Youve done this before a few times now but now it hurts the most because its severe and stronger this time. I'm not forgiving you when you apologize. WAY TO BE #4

So many times I wanted to tell DA secret, how I felt, but I knew you read it, and I assumed you'd guess it was me.

I wish we were never friends, because when we finish this little fall out we're having, I'd feel better knowing I didnt expose myself to someone so untrue. I wish everything I ever told you, I didnt. I wish Everything you know, you didnt. I wish so many things I cant take back. I guess thats my fault tho isnt it.

I dont know what else I can say now, there's so many things going through my head. Basically I'm so offended that you pretended to be my friend.

Time to change..Plus suggestions.

So several things in my life are changing, family wise, friend wise, pretty much any thing you can think of. And most of it isn't to great...But this year I'm determined to dedicate it to myself..for the most part, anyways. I usually put a lot of people and their feelings before me, and I will continue to do so, but I feel it's about time I learned to spoil myself and better prepare myself for next summer- where hopefully, I will start my internship at NEWSPEAK, the tattoo shop where my family's friend currently works.

I want a new digital camera, not a crappy little one for awkward myspace angles and stuff, but like a legitimate photography camera. What do you guys use? Hopefully I can get my hands on one for a relatively cheap one, with great quality.

I need a new sketch book plus pencils.. The one I had is filled, and my pencils from school are about..2 inches tall now.. and i don't have any traditional art classes this year. Sad face. Again, I'm on a budget.

So far, thats all thats my main concern. Of course theres stuff i want like a pair of gray TOMS and such, but thats what my birthday is for...which PS: is in October :D

WHOA MAN

So am I the only one who has seen Stephan Christian's (from Anberlin), new hair cut??? I thought I loved him before, but now...oh goodness I think I need to change my pants XD he looks very foxy (: They all look goooood

BEFORE...

AFTER.....

HAWTDAYUM.

I'm really in love with this for some reason. Cant say why, haha. (I uploaded the watermark version from Deviantart because it makes me feel special, obviously, gosh...) Tattoo? Yes.

Heaven Fest!

So on Sunday, Aaron's mom (and brothah ) took us to Heaven Fest which was for CO only i guess, which is BADASS, and could be called the christian's warped tour And we met up with Connor and Kevin n_n Here's Kevin as a unicorn, and connor with pretty grass bows i made XD hahaha Aaron wouldn't let me make him pretty ):

In all it was amazing! I but I got a sunburn on my chest ): But I saw The devil wears Prada, The Crimson Armada, A Plea For Purging, and Blessed By A Broken Heart, and more 8DK It was Awesome. I don't know how else to describe it (:

Dear LovedOnes.

No one will ever mean what they say, or love you nearly as much as i have or or will. That's a promise. I may just throw words at you to cheer you up, but make no impact, but I don't see anyone trying nearly as hard as I do. In the end, you're not the only one who needs friendly pretty words tossed in their laps. Some times when we talk, and as hard as I try, nothing I say can change how you feel. Usually when that happens, I stop and wonder for a moment what if you left my life, even if it wans't forever. And I break down and cry. Honestly. Each and every one of you are my reasons I know things will be okay in the end. Cause you know what? Life sucks. But with you in mine, it's a whole lot better. Next time someone else lies to you and say they love you, or hurt you again, remember that I still love you. Even if it's tomorow, or in 20 years. I want to keep you as my best friend.

Please excuse this mini-rant filled blog.